am trying very hard to study OT. tried so hard that i don even know if anything gets into my head.

i wish i can be a full-time student.
i wish i don have to work part-time.
i wish i don have to borrow study loan from bank.
i wish i don have to even worry about anything.


studying full-time while working part-time is indeed not easy.
in the first place, why did i gave up teaching the kids?
because i thought money's still more important than time?
and maybe cos all my fave kids are going back to korea, leaving all the irritating ones behind.

maybe that's why i left.


before the start of this semester, we thought we can start doing projects as soon as we receive the details. never did i expect that we will be stucked with many other individual assignments and test. worst still, some of the project details were not posted up that soon too.


and...
these few nights, i kept dreaming about work.
dreamt that i was serving customers etc. they seem so real.
other than work, i also dreamt that i witness people dying, sigh.
first night, i saw someone jumping off the building.
second night, er... cant remember (is good not to remember though).



TRAUMATISING, i tell you.
makes me wake up every hour.




now...
i have to prepare for work already! suet's not working today :(
sigh.