*sour grapes are everywhere*


work must be really boring for you right?
therefore, i hereby present a post specially for you!


i am still figuring it out why someone just simply enjoy doing something others will not do.
can't believe it.

there're still many grown-ups who still act like some 9-yo kids, playing all the bearing-grudges soft of game, having a revengeful mindset, playing the anonymous identity, saying something outdated etc.
so old already still use such tactics to-try-to-provoke someone (obviously that "someone" here refers to me).

there will be karma.
what goes around comes around; it will be back to you one fine day.

it may not directly hit you, but maybe your loved ones. karma, i believe. it's like retribution.


i am clear of what i have done and what i am doing. i need not hide my identity.
be bold, you wanna insult someone, just use your freaking real name. be proud of your name, your parents did put a lot of effort having to think of your name. love your name.

obviously, everyone already somehow know who the culprit is, just by looking at how the messages are put across. and what's more, with the advancement of technology, ip address(es) are readily available and can be tracked down easily.

please grow up and find something more meaningful. maybe you should start setting some professional and personal goals for yourself. perhaps it will lead you to the right path. remember, set SMART goals!





get a life okay? you're no longer young anymore. i wish his girlfriend can really knock some sense into his big-yet-currently-empty brain.


*oops! i just stepped on one sour grape.*



hate me if you want (you already do anyway).

yet again dreadful monday!


this weekend was pretty event-ful, i'd say.

xiaoxin accompanied me to sakae for our long-awaited buffet (finally), it was really really good. has been a long long time since he's free on a weekday! much appreciated for the effort. love you still. how i wish that we can go back to days when we're much younger especially during those school term break! ha. now that you're working and studying and i am still studying and working part-time, we have got much lesser time to have weekdays-shopping, weekdays-movies, weekdays-buffet, weekdays-so-on-and-on. ha.

face the fact, we're all growing older and older up. really.
the fact is still a fact and we can't deny it. terrible.

celebrating birthday(s) can no longer be a happy event because each birthday celebration will remind us of how old we are. terrible again. ha, i was too extreme la, celebrating birthday of course will still be a happy event.


had bb lecture on saturday morning and right after that, i have to rush for tuition and also partly because i want to meet sandra along the way. so i rushed down and yes, i met her. been a long time, never did i expect us to meet in such situation. ha. there was some miscommunication with the korean mum and thus, i was there for an hour only just to teach joo-han. but anyways, i stayed for another half an hour because the mum request me to teach joo-bin her chinese spelling and also chatted with her mum a little while. it's really nice to hear positive feedback from her, and am so much relief to know that she actually likes me. i like her (them) too! (:

went for a little shopping at ang mo kio and then head back home. toasted the bread but sadly, it was burnt. while eating it, xiaoxin smsed me and command me to head down to bugis to meet them for some CNY shopping. didnt really shopped at bugis because the crowd there was quite scary. so they decided to head back to orchard. ha should have told me earlier right, don have to waste my energy traveling here and there. waste ezlink fare, hahas. no money already! thats why so calculative. ha.

xiaoxin bought a checkered shirt from freshbox and i like it a lot a lot! if only i am a boy. ha. i ended up buying nothing, i don know why. just didnt have the shopping mood now, probably because i am financially-handicap. had dinner quite late that night but it's really worth the wait. dinner at the fish-and-co-inspired restaurant was actually quite good because their fish-and-chips is chip cheap and yummy! i will head back for fish and chips again!

went out on sunday to celebrate weihao's birthday. it was a last minute decision and we were still in bed when wenming called. rushed to wash our face, bathe and so on. he drove us around singapore to pick everyone up and then settle our lunch at tiong bahru plaza. some pasta cafe, i don know the name of the cafe. anyway, was very very very very very super sleepy and tired! didnt have much energy to talk, and think.


well well, chinese new year is really next week! like very very soon. when i was much younger (as a kid), i look-ed forward to every cny because i get to wear brand new sleepwear, brand new clothes for visiting, and obviously the angbaos! as i grow older, i dread cny except for the fact that i love having holidays during cny and the angbaos i will receive. but the angbaos seem to grow lesser and lesser every year. big sigh. i have yet to get any clothes for cny too! just didnt have the mood to do so because everywhere's so terribly crowded and that spoils the mood for shopping.

tuition's cancelled again today because i couldnt make it on time as i had lecture from 930am - 5pm today. i thought they would mind to have lesson 30minutes later or so. but i was so wrong, the mum told me that her daughter has many homework to do so she'd like to cancel tuition. there goes my opportunity to earning money again. this clearly explains why my pay is sooo unstable! hate it.

lecture today was terribly horrible! i forced myself to wake up and get prepared. met dada on bus and we decided to head over to the library first to get our notes printed but mission failed. so we went to the computer labs to try our luck but still, fail. gave up the whole idea of printing so we sneaked into the lecture during their break time and mixed in the crowd. it was all pure luck, otherwise, we'd be seated in the front row as well. all thanks to suet who did such a big sacrificing just for us (we know). ha. if i didnt met dada on bus, i think i will probably be another unlucky one to be seated in front.

for this lecture, i swear to be on time. die die also must be on time. otherwise, the lecturers will show us their power. i am a low-profile student, and will always remain the same. ha.



aiya, pictures will be up soon.
am tooooo sleepy and tired to upload it right now.



byes!

CNY's perhaps 2-3 weeks time.

are you prepared?

today's another no-school-no-tuition day! hooray. and i will probably skip tuition tomorrow if jimson neo decided not to work. ha. for him, i is can sacrificeee.

yesterday night, one of the korean mums sent me an sms. i scanned through the sms and thought that she didnt want me to teach her son (joo-han) anymore! i was feeling a little weird and so. i almost replied her, "er? you're changing tutor for joo-han?" ha. apparently, i read the sms incorrectly! she's asking me to help her find one english tutor for her daughter (joo-bin) whom i tutor her chinese.

and yes finally, i got sandra to take on this job! ((: i believe she has the ability to tutor her. and maybe... psycho her mum to make korean sushi for her. ha.

i think i have got a lot of tuition lobang recently. another korean mum from bishan asked me if i can tutor her sister (who's the little girl aunt). i rejected that offer because i will feel uncomfortable when comes to tutoring an adult despite the superb pay they're giving. inconfident and not up to it.

many humans always think that we earn a lot as a tutor. maybe if one is a full-time tutor, he or she will earn quite a bit. but for part-time tutor, the money doesnt seem to roll in at all. terribly bad. the money we earn is just an allowance. haa.

no money!

i is vely the weak ah.
i is falling sick again.

skipped luition (tuition) on last saturday because i was out with my pengyous on friday night till late. couldnt wake up on time for luition, or should i say, i is vely lazy to wakes ups ah.

had beehoon goreng at some wee hours at a prata house, so late but no choice cos i was hungry.

on saturday itself, xiaoxin and i together with his mum went to ikea at tampines. bought some cutleries, scissors, "dividers", waste paper basket, chopping board, cushions and so on for my house. i love ikea, all because it is cheap and i admit that they do have quite nice designs and colours for most of the things. although the quality may not be as good, but it's alright for me, as long as it looks pretty.

...i love their $1 hotdog bun too! cheap and good. yummy. ha!

after ikea-ing, we went over to defu furniture to search for suitable sofas within the given budget. but sadly, everything's soo expensive! it's way too different from what they have advertise in newspaper.

headed back to his house after that and then left for amk after a little while to continue our sofa-search. finally decided and bought a set of sofa from furniture hq, where all the staff dressed all black from head to toe and they have all got the kind of ah bengs and ah lians look. when they all gathered, they really look like they're members of the secret society. i`m not being exaggerating.

...but they're nice people ((:
(because they gave me discounts. ha.)


aye. xiaoxin's getting busier and busier, flooded with group meetings and assignments. that means he will have lesser time for me. he has got lessons on every monday and wednesday evening and group meetings will be on weekends because most of his group members are working adults and that they only have the weekends to spare. moreover, they're almost all of them are singles. sighs.


school again tomorrow.
aye. i is hate to wakes up earlies.

good morning humans.

uploaded some random photos taken on 12jan.

there's a sudden craving for japanese food right now, all looks so yummy delicious ((: mei wei ke kou. yummyyummy!

my love and i. sorry xiaoxin, i know i have been a ultra bad girlfriend recently. hahaa. don leave me alone and i will resume being a goood girlfriend! lala. but i still love you la. oh no, valentine's day is coming soon and i have yet to plan anything. actually i have what i wanna do in mind already, just that there's no action yet. all because i am a ultimate lazy girl. ha. ((:
with kenji.
i bit him moderately hard. that was because he asked me to, lol. aye but i do feel guilty still. sorry mr melvin ng chee keong, i will be more gentle in future. ha!
i should really stop biting humans already, it's painful. although i feel that i only bite moderately hard, but the other party/parties do feel the pain such as the other time when i bit seng :( ha.

maybe cos i am born in the year of tiger.

ROAR!

hey friends, there's really really such invention on earth!
this is soo cool and cute! ((:

talking on the phone will be easier, bet there will be lesser heat transmission and lesser radiator etc. ha.

cool right?

the supposedly last day to pay my school fee is on the 15th of jan.
today's already the 20th, i have yet to take any action at all from the bank.

will SIM terminate my registration? ha.




i`m such a bochap person. aiyo.

jimson neo pasted this horoscope thingy on msn just now and i thought... it's quite true to a certain extent. but he himself thinks that it is very true to the way i are. ha.


the way i are ❤
VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

the way he is ❤
CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

it's friday again!

i love friday the most, for now.
am enjoying every minute now, so care-free - no tuition, no school today!

ha.


if only xiaoxin can take mc today, then i will drag him to sakae with me.
have been craving for it since don know when. but he always has got no time for me in the afternoon.


((:



xiaoxin's starting to get yanjuan of my talkings. ha.

i don know who's this pretty girl, i found her on sgst ((:

i like her hair.
give it to me give it to me give it to me.

sneak preview of our "party like a log-star" pictures ((:
too busy to be uploading all pictures to the facebook or whatsoever. all humans, please be considerate and understanding. i am busy, and will be busy. will definitely upload those photos when i am ultra free, like you.

i love them! and where's dada and larrina? ((:

clubbing is fun as long as they're with me (minus away the xiaomeis and xiaodis and hornyarses). but i think we're starting to feel yanjuan of it already all because we are growing up and felt a little out of place because the dance floor was flooded with children who just hit 18!

we're old. growing old.


at least, i still have you all!
❤

i`m not alone. ha.


party like a log... party like a log-star.

FOUND this song! finally.

...this song does exist!

JOKE of the month!


last week, suet was saying that she's he xian gu...
then seng added, "if you're he xian gu, i will be dong gu!"
she continued, "yeeling will be mo gu and dada will be........ CHIKU!"


LOL!
the CHIKU part is damn funny la!


i am laughing loudly by myself, my family will probably think i am crazy.
no more frustration. ha.

so frustrated.
so many things waiting to be completed.

frustrating; just go away!
fuck you.



bigbig sigh.




She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low

it's here finally.

I AM SOOO HAPPY!
hoorays!

darling, lets be happy again! ((: muahs.

cam-whore in SIM (again) while waiting for guan. ha!
all thanks to dada for the beautiful pictures and collage-s! ha.


haha, i feel so beard-y. like a young santa ((:
many many attempts to take nice shots with all heads in.
the two best shots here.
and the many fail-ed shots here.
i think i love myself more. ha.
where's dada?

they're the super moler. ha.

all bad things are falling at me.

horrible horrible start of year 2008; im disappointed.

firstly, my purse (including all the cash, ezlink card etc) is with xiaoxin.

secondly, my mobile line has been disconnected by m1. am unable to receive or send any smses, make or receive any phone calls and so on.

life without phone is weird. i feel so isolated.

another bad thing just happened - i was suppose to have tuition at 3pm today but the mum cancelled the tuition, already "informed" and "sms-ed" me. obviously, my line isnt working and on my side, i wasn't informed at all. so, i went all the way down, went through the guardhouse and then reached their house.

i reached early so i stood there for almost 15minutes doing nothing, hopefully they will be back soon. after much waiting, my sixth sense told me to go back to the guardhouse and call them. i went to the guardhouse but they told me that their intercom is not working therefore they couldnt inform them that ive reached. borrowed their phone (because i cant use mine) and called the mum.

the mum told me that they're now in ica building and had informed me that she'd like to cancel tuition today via sms.

argh. but... i didnt received it! because i have "no phone".


a wasted trip there.
it was raining some more.


what a sad life.

oh no. please take away my bad luck!
good luck please come back to me for 2008!



2008 huat ah!
ha.

just gotten back from school not so long ago, all thanks to dada who drove me (us) to and fro school today! it makes going to school even better, ha.

xiaoxin has been yearning for this gillette for some time already and i bought one for him, for $5.20 cheaper than everywhere else! ah, so aunty. but it's worth it. i can do a lot with $5.20. ha.

on friday night, xiaoxin came over to my house in the middle of the night (around 3am) after i complained to him that i am not feeling well etc. didnt really expect that he will come all the way down to "take care" of me. a nice gesture actually. ((: thank you.

had tuition on saturday for 2 and a half hours. time was crawling way too slow and i secretly wished and prayed that i can sneak off and disappear forever. ha. xiaoxin cooked spaghetti for his family and brought some for me as well! wonderful boyfriend. found a seat in amk hub and started eating like a pig there. yums.

ya, like a pig.
yes! and it's back to school again again! been going to school for four days already (since monday). quite happy to be in school, it's better than nothing to do.
at least i have them in school. ha.

why am i feeling so restless and uneasy?



((:

it's back to school again tomorrow.

will be able to see my-lovely-everydays again! great.
a little mixed feeling though because it is a must to wake up super early everyday (almost everyday) already.

see you girlies in school tomorrow! (except for suet, who is now enjoying in genting!) ha.

us on new year eve ((:

i enjoy bullying xiaoxin (: but he is falling sick again, argh. please be stronger, and recover fully tomorrow. dislike you being a sick-ling. ha.
his turn to bully me. it's alright.
i have no idea why he was so fancinated by this NUM advert. hahas.
and me, amazed by melchia's dangerous toy. it bites, really.

a very very pessimistic first post of 2008, in my journal.



i think i am suffering from some sleeping disorder.
this thing has been going on since few months ago.

really hate it when my eyes just refuse to shut tightly, even though i am very tired.



i feel as if everything's going to topple on me, don know why.
unlimited bills that's supposed to be settled yet not settled, eventually create a big mess.
why cant human be more organised, instead of accumulating everything and then taste the pain at the end.

i am guessing that my mobile number is blacklisted by m1 already.
this is the 4234741124578 times my line got disconnected due to unpaid bills.
after i complete this 2-year plan, i am going to sign up an account on my own and pay my own bill rather than under my mother's name since she doesnt even inform us about anything, how can we ever help.

getting frustrated over many things.
from minor to major.

school has already started for both my brothers, and mine will start this coming monday.
seriously, i have no idea how to help both of them already. i have tried but, that doesnt work.
they themselves are young adults already and they should learn to cope simple things by themselves such as waking up for school.

my mum will sms me around 6plus in the morning, asking me to wake them up. can you imagine that i have to wake up at around 6plus just to wake them up yet they still lie there and probably doze off despite knowing the time. and, i will have to keep myself awake just to make sure that they are really up and preparing to get to school. most of the time, i will have to shout for them at least twice, or thrice. why cant my mum bomb my brothers' phone instead? why cant she call him/them until they are fullly awake?

am really sick of all these.




i am really really tired, but i just cant get to sleep in peace.
please, let me resume my healthy sleeping routine.
please, give me some beautiful sleep(s).
i want to sleep soundly throughout the night.

and randomly, please knock some sense into my brothers. let them be more sensible and sensitive towards others. lead them to the correct path, please guide them.



i, do wish to forward time.