it's never easy to find someone who matches your ideal.

but it's even difficult to find someone who loves you more than you do, cherish you like you're the only one in his or her eyes, understands you better than anyone else does.

of course, not everyone will behave the way you expect him or her to be, that's why disappointment often sets in.

whatever it is, dream will still be a dream. reality is the real thing and we got to be real and forget about living in a fantasy world or your ideal world.

we can't control things, but we can prevent or learn to live with it.

someone true doesnt come by everyday. this person may not be your ideal one, but at least this person will stay true to you (which i feel is more important because i never like liars or flirts). ha.

actually, i just feel a little guilty because everyone knows that i am quite evil (a strong word to use though) to xiaoxin whereas he is always the angel and i am always seem to be the devil! gr. haa. but i admit, my ideal kinda boyfriend is totally opposite from where he is standing be it the character, the outlook etc because i love nasty men, taller, single eye-lid men with cool character, um just like jaychou, ha. i use to grumble all these to him but now i started asking myself if i am the ideal girl he has been looking for.

for sure, i doubt i am one (because im neither pretty, cute, petite nor soft-spoken).

after so long, i realise that to be truly fortunate, a girl must learn to love and cherish their partner (even though they may not be the ideal) in order to be genuinely loved by the other party.

i ought to cherish my dearest boyfriend because he is really a near-perfect-wonderboy with super nicey heart and understands me like nobody does. he, who stand by me during the stormy weather, make sure he sleep after me, giving in to me most of the time etc.

thank you for being there for me, not once not twice but all the time. you know i do love you, i just do not know how to express this love some times. for you know, i believe that i have become a better person and am someone who loves you more than before.


I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin like a child now
Cause everytime I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I'll always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go