hello!

i am very fine, thank you. haa.



weekends were love once again.
the cycle goes on and on; weekend then long weekdays then weekend then weekdays again.
why cant we stop the time whenever we want and forward it whenever possible?
dream on.


jorin's post on the birthday boy indirectly strike me to work harder for mr jimson neo.
no work = no money = no perfect celebration?
for the past few occasions such as the christmas, valentine's day etc i had failed to give you the perfect celebration.
this round, i promise to be with you for your birthday (not only birthdays but every day). all for you; one and only.

i will do the planning this time round okay? (:


i thought i'd have forgotten your birthday again. yes, i admit that i didn't feel that it is coming until i look at the calendar! only 17 days left for me to get everything prepared!

oh and now that i am looking at the calendar, i realised that the body lotion i wanna get from bodyshop is having promotion now! i will pester him to accompany me there! he will, definitely.

since the first of june, the love we share has grown stronger as each day passes by, especially after a traumatizing earthquake. we stay strong and helped each other when one's falling, learn to forgive and forget and never make such mistakes be repeated. i'd say that we have experienced a beautiful nightmare during our times together. human learns by mistakes but it would be even better if such mistakes are not made.

on the other hand, i felt that having being led to another place called `heavenly hell` did let me open up and forced me to see the world of different species - the different types of human that exist and so on. for such a young age, i went through many. it can be very traumatizing. however, it doesnt matter to me anymore because i accept my mistakes with an open heart and take it as an experience and lesson learned.

in most of the dramas we have seen, the ending will always be the most cruel. and the fact that the evil will always win at the end of the day because they are evil. while the good will lose out because they are too vulnerable and they choose to ignore and move on while the evil finds ways to harm the good. typical.

that's why in my previous post, i stated that if you're good, you're good. if you're bad, you're forever bad.

darling and i have been through a lot, for whatever reason we are being harmed is perhaps my wrongs in the past. such things happen a gazillion times and it is never ending. both of us chose not to ignore and avoid the situation, it's just that we are immuned and numbed to the whole plot. it's predictive and a joke to us ((:

this enhances our love life because it proves so that we needed each other during the good and bad times. some times, it is not about just protecting yourself, it's about the level of integrity and pride each individual's has. once free, next caught. one fine day.

enough said. no more breath for such not-important stuff. it doesnt matter anymore to me. it is never ending. ego-ist creature with no pride and integrity (the traits of a professional liar). why is it so difficult to admit?
pity the people who has been cheated, including myself.


anyway, life with jimson neo has been perfectly great! the bonding is so indescribeable and i am thankful that we met. he is so irreplaceable and i know that i am another luckiest girl on earth. like what jorin said, "our grade A boyfriends" haa. was chatting with her on msn last week and she taught me many on how to resist temptation from the outside world. it was indeed a valueable chat with great food flying over the msn windows. she, who makes me love and cherish my boyfriend even more.

last night, darling and i woke up in the middle of the night and i was thinking that how nice it would be if we can stop the time right then. how i wish i can see him every morning when i open my eyes, he is the only one i want. i can never lose him because i love him for the way he is, love him for being able to tolerate all my nonsense, love him for being forgiving and accept me for whoever i am, love him for being there for me during my breaking point, love him for being honest and never a liar, love him for being what a husband does, love him for being such a perfect boyfriend, love him for working hard for my sake, love him for being not revengeful at all, love him for being lovely, love him for bringing me the genuine happiness with no tinge of evil intention, love him for being so true t0 me one and only... in short, i love him for who he is and who he will be.




i love you, darling.