ahh... just pathetic lah!

he is enjoying good dim sum right now while i am eating fruits and cup noodle!
life's so unfair; ha!

i felt so weird yesterday evening. am not thinking about anything. just felt lonely again.
i was tired but i thought couldn't sleep (um, after a while i fell asleep real fast!) ha.
watched the 9pm show for the very first time though and my parents were telling me that it's probably the last episode.
at least i watched the last episode ok.

from the show:
"many things are often left unspoken."
"happiness that are lost can never be found again."

and many more... i tried so hard to remember but i only remember this two.
short-term memory indeed.

only 512k. cannot store more.

i am only 21 this year yet i think i am suffering from some lao ren chi dai zheng.
so when i grow older... will i still remember everything? ha.
doubt so.

when can i get myself inked? nobody accompany me... haa!
chiasuet, accompany me lah :D
you don have to get yourself inked! i need companion... (;




yuhooo.

my motto: "whatever will be, will be."



muahs.

EXTREMELY TIRED!

...wanna sleep...

EDITING for the sake of wasting time.
CHEERS!



yes! finally trimmed my eyebrow after so long! ((: feeling so happy about it. HA!

boring evening for me.
the handsome boy.
bought him this shirt for his future interviews and maybe work. topman's having sales! worth it (:
i'd say, almost everywhere's having sales now since it's GREAT SINGAPORURA SALES!
again, items on sales are usually... lorry bang qia(s)!

i know i am looking so colourless again...

oh. my stomach's burning a hole.

the tomyum i had for lunch is killing me softly. ha.



and i've got free donuts! looks so yummy delicious. thanks to the intern whom i mistreated! ha.
not because of any other reasons, donuts from qbread rocks too! (:

anyway... enough of donuts;

brownie from cartel is still the best. sinked in chocolate fudge and a little almond nuts with a scoop of vanilla ice cream.
this is heavenly, i swear.

deliciously sinful!


wednesday night! we will rock you!
will have to rush down after driving; hur.
so please make it worth it.

public holiday eve = no ladies night = need to pay = no free flow?
aw.



another funny thing happen at work.
i don know where this guy came from but i noticed that there was a small green worm wiggling from the top of his head downwards.

nobody dare to tell him that there is a worm on his head.
i cant stop laughing but i laughed silently. half controlling half laughing. this is worst than laughing out loud! haa.
so i went into another room and another colleague joined me and we discussed how to tell him about it. haa.
imagine somebody telling you: "there's a worm on your head."

funny right.


oh my goodness. poor man.

THE EDITED.

[Intro]
Can you feel me?
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it

oo yeah
on the dance floor
can you feel me?

Diddy: [Verse 1]
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Let's play a game, let's pretend for a second
You dont know who I am, and what I do
Lets just put it to the side.
I can feel your heart beating, I can hear you breathing
Look into your eyes, tryna see into your mind, see into your soul.
No limits to the levels me and you can go,
When it's me thats in control
But it's something bout you that makes me wanna change
I like the way you dancin, and the way you play the game
I like the way you take away the pain,
The way you tell me that you want it, not sayin a thing
The way you got me going, got me going out of my brain
I see us going at it, going in and out of them lanes
I don't want your innocence, I don't want you to settle,
I don't want a commitment and I don't want you to suffer.
I don't want your number, baby I want you to wonder.
I want you to come up looking like something you want to.

Christina:
Tell me
Whatcha thinking about when you got me waiting patiently
And usually I don't have to wait for nobody.
But there's something about you that really got me feelin weak,
And I'm trying to find the words to speak.

[Bridge]
Boy I got my eyes on you
So tell me what you want to do
I can picture you in my room
Until the morning.
I don't even know your name
Boy I need to know your name
I'm hopin that you feel the same
Tell me if you want it.

[Chorus]
I know your gunna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You know)
Cuz baby your invited. (Baby)
I know your gunna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You know)
Cuz baby your invited. (Baby)

Diddy: [Verse 2]
Your dream's fulfilled, you rockin with the best
Unforgivable, I'mma put your limits to the test
Your pulsating, your heart is beating out of your chest
Your hyperventilating, you tryna catch your breath (Don't stop)
I'm the first, I'm the next, I'm the end
I'm the force in your thoughts that will make your mind bend.
Look how I approached you, look how I exposed you
The -- every move, now I know you
I dont want to control you, I want to console you
And do everything that I told you
Get high with me, come touch the sky with me
Fly with me, see life in new eyes with me. (Don't stop)
I'm the dream, I'm the one, I'm the reason you come
I'm a king, I'm a hoe, I'm a beast (I'm a beast)
I'm the last thing in your eyes
See the passions inside me, and yours never cry me.

Christina:
Tell me, whatcha thinking about when your hands is all on me
Cuz I been thinkin about all the possibilities
Ain't no other place that I really want to be
Cuz you swept me off my feet ohh

[Bridge]
Boy, I got my eyes on you
So tell me what you want to do
I can picture you in my room
Until the morning.
I dont even know your name
Boy, I need to know your name
I'm hopin that you feel the same
Tell me if you want it.

[Chorus]
I know your gunna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you dont have to fight it (You know)
Cuz baby your invited. (Baby)
I know your gunna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you dont have to fight it (Baby your invited)
Cuz baby your invited. (Baby)

[Hook]
I got a selection of the positions of affection
With no pressure
So tell me
Tell me how you want it, tell me how you want it babe
I got a selection of the positions of affection
With no pressure
So tell me
Tell me how you want it
Tell me how you want it babe

Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it
Do that shit do that shit do it

maybe that's a kind of illness. shall not disturb him anymore. otherwise one day he bash me up.
scary.

anyway, chocolate is the only thing that can make me happier.


cheers.

perhaps i am still the same old me. still as anti-social.
recalled the days in secondary school and poly...

and now...

in this office... i am so pissed off by one particular person! god dammit!
can he stop coming into my territory!? so frustrating! i don want him to get near me. fuck off!

stupid blur cock.



sigh.

he makes my life here miserable.
so what if he's from ntu? he's good with books but i doubt he can do any work well. it's proven.

he makes things worst for me!


shall update more about HIM if i have got the time...


for the time being, i want him to get outta my sight! if only he stops coming to me, stops squeezing into my small territory, stops fiddling with my stuff and stops asking me stuff! sigh.


go away, pest!

being bored at work, i started browsing through the new paper online articles and came across this. sgsecret's online portal where i'd say mostly singaporeans post their supposedly-secrets online and share them with other members where comments will be posted.

what really interest me was not only the content of what members/anonymous have posted but the way they design their thoughts. interesting, i thought. they look more like postcards to me! ((:


From TNP:
"The secrets range from poignant tales of forbidden love and empty promises to confessions of loneliness and inferiority complexes."

"The most common secrets so far - almost two-thirds of the posts which The New Paper read on the site - have to do with love and relationships."

"So what drives Singaporeans to want to reveal their dark secrets to the world?"



some times, it's just difficult to find someone who is willing listen to all your troubles 24/7. moreover, speaking out the truth and personal problems may be a little more difficult than having to write it all down. most of the time, replies from listeners will 99% be the same. eventually i feel that talking (chatting) with not-so-close friends/strangers may be a better option because you know that this person is neutral.

no worries, i am fine!



attached some examples from sgsecrets. no other intention/meaning behind it. i just like the designs of these selected ones. but again, i think i can do the same as well (; haa.

nice and creative, isn't it?

Your First Name of: Lynnette

Although the name Lynnette creates the urge to be original and self-reliant, we emphasize that it limits self-expression and friendly congeniality with a moody disposition.

This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses heart, lungs, bronchial area, and tension or accidents to the head.

Your first name of Lynnette has given you a studious nature, and the ability to concentrate on whatever you are doing.

You could excel in mathematics or in positions where persistence, independence, and individuality are required.

In personal associations, a lack of finesse in verbal expression often creates misunderstandings with others, especially with those close to you, because you find it difficult and embarrassing to express depth of feeling when situations arise requiring diplomacy, understanding, and affection.

i know it's still early. didnt expect myself to wake up so early though.

anyway, what does it mean if one keeps vomiting?
don be shallow, not only pregnant ladies vomit!
is there any phobia such that one keeps vomiting after hearing someone's voice?

i'd like to know!

graduation ceremony tomorrow morning but am not going for it though i have signed up already.

don think it's important since i can collect the cert some other days.
not like i stay around the east area. i doubt i will want to force myself to wake up early for the ceremony. alas, work is different!
dateline for renting the graduation "suit" is over already and since i didnt have one, might as well just not go. save up the money.

i want to get myself ink-ed! keen anyone? (;

曲名：非你莫属
歌手：演唱：林依晨 专辑：null
词：陈信廷 曲：TANK

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球全都绕着你走

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿守护由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会笑着哭但那人是你所以不怕苦

懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕你同时点亮了星辰
整个宇宙浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球全都绕着你走

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿守护由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会笑着哭但那人是你所以不怕苦

看那么多相遇偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹
哦..
我心的缝隙
我想除了你任谁也无法填补这空虚

sigh. am i really that scary? :(
i didnt know.
im sorry.

everybody see things on the surface only; never in-depth.
why i did this; why i did that?
were there any reasons behind my doings? nobody cares.
i learned to keep things to myself because i myself knows myself more than anyone else. even though i am still learning to know myself.

me, myself and i.

it's okay to be misunderstood.
im fine with it.

but some times, what really hurt the most is when someone you thought knows you the best end up losing my track. losing the faith in me. losing the trust and everything.



hear nobody, but yourself.
see nobody, but yourself.
trust nobody, but yourself.

the ups and downs in life. live with it. life's this interesting (:
get back on track after a break.
cry out loud not to gain sympathy but to make yourself feeling better.


im really not out to hurt anyone.
i just wanted and tried very hard to please everyone. want the people i love to be happy, always.
again, it's difficult to please everyone.

i rather be the one not happy afterall.
hear me out. you wouldnt.
i hate myself. where's myself? you aint that vulnerable before.

cherish everyone and everything before it's too late.





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