what a boring new year...

went to darling's house yesterday afternoon. played cardgame and had steamboat for dinner.
well...

at the end of the day, something bad happened again. shall not elaborate more. gek sim.


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good things you did, nobody will ever remember.
bad things you did, everybody will remember.

human are funny creatures.
they CAN forgive but can NEVER forget.

i cannot change the perception others think of me. just because of that incident, everybody thinks i am not worthy at all. whatever they want to think about me i cant stop them. they give me names, scolded me, there's still nothing i can do. really don know what i can do now. i've tried my best in gaining back the trust but why... why are you so scared? it's so demoralising and disappointing when my effort has gone to waste.

well, nobody's at fault or anything. i don blame anyone. seriously. there're many ups and downs in life, this is part and parcel of life. we should learn to accept things the way it is. we should learn accept anyone's flaws. no one is perfect. i am 0% perfect. i have made the most mistake but i am still trying very hard.

i hate to think about all these. why can't we just put every fucking things aside? to me, avoidance is still the best even though i know that it is not the best solution. there are many many endings to a specific problem. one has to be more open to solutions... being possessive and paranoid won't help as well, it just makes thing worst.

i am still young, am really still out to seek more fun. we should enjoy when we are younger! life is really short... when we are older, there will be restrictions. when we are even older, there will be even more restrictions. so why not, make use of your youth and enjoy life to the fullest until the day when we think we are old.

no point brooding over things that are in the past. it just makes life difficult for everyone. no point bearing grudges as well. human changes... lifestyle changes... mindset changes...

why... why must you be controlled by others? should have your own stand of view.