another boring day. stucked at home; doing nothing. browsed through all the sprees plus sales sites already; read most of the blogs already; bored.

daren won! yeahs. ha. was too bored last night as well so i watched through the superstar final. quite interesting though; loves the overall performance and backstage lighting, graphics, designs etc. all thanks to the advancement of technology.

think i am really typing in a sian-sian mood, guess everyone who reads it will become sian too. why are you sian...? ha.

sigh. when i am alone, i tend to think more; more of those things that should be forgotten. for the very first time on friday, darling got so furious and lectured me. yeah. for the very first time after 30months of get-together. ((: but any human will be angry too. scared-ed. but i deserve it. i will do whatever you told me to. don want to lose you anymore. sorry to hurt you once again *slap myself*. after much forgiven by you, i made the same mistakes again and again. im really sorry and i seek your forgiveness darling. swear that i will never hurt you again, never betray your trust anymore. i will help you climb the 12-storey stairs once again. this time i know i may have pushed you real hard down to the ground floor... let's climb up and reach for the peak once again. i will prove them all wrong, will not make you "lose-your-face" in front of your friends again.

i will prove them all wrong. let's start everything afresh. i will treasure you more. (: iluaaa!