Wednesday, January 24, 2007
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12:44 PM
i don know to update or not but still... if you know what is going on from 18/01/07 till then, then good for you - don comment. if you don't, then just don care so much because it is NOYB :D do not wish to haggle onto this problem for so long. will do everyone no good. LOVE IS ABOUT FORGIVING! (:* yes, i am in love still!anyway, whoever the mastermind is, i would like to thank you for doing such dangerous and heroic move. thanks for hurting everyone but at least this incident helped me a lot. it makes me understand who i really want to be with for life, who's good and bad etc. at least i don have to feel guilty and sad whenever i face jimson anymore. at least now i am guilt-free. i admit that i have betrayed jimson times and times again, but i can guarantee everyone that i will never ever do it again. no other person will forgive me, but he did. am really really fortunate to have someone like him to take care of me, forever. the other party keeps telling me that he needs my trust because he has his reasons for doing all these. sigh. i really want to believe him so much but i couldn't help but to think of all the good and bad things you have done to me. i hate his fucking evil friend. that devil is the one controlling your mind, controlling everything. he is the one who destroyed everything you have. he wants to take away my everything, left me with nothing at all. this is revenge. come on la, that devil's girlfriend left him with nothing left therefore he wants to save all the men on earth. save them from all evil women. silly thought though. i would say that not al l the females on earth are replica of his ex-girlfriend. stupid devil just enjoy stereotyping all the girls. i know clearly that i will not be like his ex-girlfriend pattern, though many times my pattern always more than badminton. rest assure that jimson will fall into the hole you're in now. will never ever! i will take good care of him. ha. go be a monk la! FUCK YOU! you think every guy thinks like you do? you think everyone will fall into your trap? you think you will always get what you want? all i can say is that jimson is definitely different from all other guys, i have made the right choice even from the beginning. i will not let him down anymore. "they laugh at him because he is different; he laughs at them because they are all the same!"was really hurt so badly by that rat. kept asking myself why must he do all these to me. everything changes without 8hours. it happens too sudden and i wasn't prepared at all. all the good times that we have spent together are no longer real. all human-s know about our secret "affair" and the things we do. every single thing. i am condemned by your army friends, labeled as a bitch! cool. everybody thinks i am the one controlling and toying with these two men feelings but i myself know i am not. really am not. i am one of the victims too. i am not scared because i have done nothing wrong. hee. i admit my wrong already. now i am not guilty of anything. the soft-hearted me will still need time to forget that rat totally. i admit i still do think of all the things he did to me frequently, the things he said and everything. all these will cover all the big mistakes you have done, forgave every evil move you made. "You should treat Jimson better. He is nice and trust you enough to give you a third chance...""After thinking so long, I see no point in this.. We've no future.. You can do this to jim, you can do this to me anytime in future too. I don't want to get hurt again like what my ex-gf did to me. And Jimson is a guy too nice for you.. If its other guy, you would have being dumped!"coool."I didn't sleep the whole of last night. I don't know what i did to you is right or wrong.. But i really regretted. I cried the whole night.. Love you so much.."contradicting. i choose to believe that youre not the evil man. i choose to believe you times and times again. i still believe that you have got your reason in doing all these, just that you're being psycho-ed an controlled. however, this may be the only and right way out. your evil friend care for you way too much. maybe this will really do you good in future, all thanks to your fucking evil friend who hates me as much as i do (; i have really learnt my lesson and i will prove it. chonkot, i just need you to stay strong and happy. all i want to say is that, i have always always always heed your advice in everything. am a good girl and listen to you all the time. ha. now that you've asked me to cherish jim, i definitely will. and i will also treat him better. i believe you are better off without me, you will feel happier too. nobody will keep sticking onto you anymore, nobody will start arguing with you with small matters anymore, nobody will make you worry anymore, nobody will cheat your money anymore. i know how much you hate me, you have already forgotten me on 23/01/07. or maybe you're trying very hard to. sigh. even if you don hate me, your fucking evil friend will have ways to psycho you into hating me for life. still, i have got no intention of doing all these. you can live happily with the lucky one. aiyoh, i will still be friendly la, still your friend as long as you're happy. darling... when can we have sakae and dimsum buffet? (: sigh. i have neglected you on christmas. valentine's day will not be disappointing (: ilua! hopefully we can stay like that forever, forgiving each other and help each other along the way. cross such hurdles and obstacles together hand-in-hand. don get go of me because i am very dependent on you and can't live without you. this incident did wake me up and had reminded me what type of man i want to live with. someone who wakes up early for me, doing things no other men will do. fix everything for me, wake up super early to boil water for me to bathe when my stupid heater spoil, forgive me for every fault i made, ensure that i am sound asleep first before he leaves/sleeps. i think i am too lucky to have you! i don deserve you, ha. god send you down to take good care of me. muahhs! indeed, this is the biggest obstacles we've just overcomed - the biggest test for us.
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♠ ME, myself&i
nothing great, nothing bad.
full-time student.
part-time worker.
JIM'S naughty girlfriend.
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