goodness! i am sick again. been the 4th fiaking mc i am taking. now it's already december 4th, counting down to the end of sip. maybe another 1 and a half month? ha. really make full use the school systems and rules.

many things happened recently. argh. to feel happy, sad, angry or disappointed? really mixture of feelings, ups and downs. am damn tired about it already. seriously, i think i am indeed someone not worthy. someone who's out to hurt everyone. someone who doesn't know her own wants and needs. maybe i should start stating all my short-term goals first. i must know what i want most on earth! this or that. that or this.

but staying this way will definitely do all good. i hate it when somebody's hurt, i hate myself. yes, whatever i am doing will definitely be selfish yet greedy. i want everything and not care about the others' feelings, causing so many little troubles to arise and eventually go out of control. something inevitable and scary.


HA! i bet nobody knows what am i talking about. no worries, am just fiaking and crapping that i don even know wtf i am talking about. GIVE ME WHAT I WANT, don take everything away!




suetster, you're getting engaged? aw! can i be your bridemaid? LOL! so long didn't see you already, no more crapping, no more evil laughter, no more sharing of everything. argh! read your blog and wanted to tag tag but your lousy tagboard don know what happened! LOL! seriously miss youu. will be in the same class again! work hard together k? (: ~~~ jin tian ni yao jia gei wo ~~~

sengkia, dorrrr and raine - argh! miss you all too. how i wish sip can be over soon so that we can hang out in school more often criticizing everyone! muhaa! so when are you all getting married too? (: can i be your bridemaid too? LOL! dor, when will you accept him? or are you all together already? ha. can wait to meet hongyan too, cant wait to see my gift -- a gift from emperor! woo. raine, no more fling k! LOL! you've got a nice bf.

sandra and karen - been dreaming of you all since don know when. i am neglecting you all. am so sorry! i saw the tweety bird! woo. lol! sandra, will you hate me? will we be going oversea again? have you move house? LOL! where are you?



my life's so boring. i want to starve myself to death! or should i eat till i die? LOL! think i am going so crazy, and basically growing stupi-er. i am ruining my perfect life. (:





nobody understand what i am saying la. i am just fcuking bored :D hee. this is serious!