ive got nothing to do at home.

bored.

was working for the last few days. nothing interesting happened. maybe for now, im more patient with all those idiotic customers, afterall, it'll do me no good to be shouting at them. i work for the money, not that im enjoying it. this is only short-term, never in the long run ((: money money, please give me more.



zhong se qin you? am i?

if you think i cant live without my boyfriend, yes you're right. maybe you should put yourself in my situation. to think im like you guys? boyfriend will always be there for you when you needed him. mind you, we have only about two and a half days out of the seven days to be together, when i needed him, he may not be there for me physically. some times even lesser days to be together due to confinement and stuff. time together is really short and precious.

maybe ive been neglecting you guys. yes. my boyfriend is above all. my priority. i don mind taking off that day if he happens to book out, i don mind skipping school just to be with him, i don mind what my friends said because i know you all don understand and maybe your boyfriend is not so important in your life. perhaps you all will only understand how im feeling and why im doing this when your boyfriend is serving the nation.

i wonder why some girls can give their boyfriends names like bastards, fcukers etc; scold their boyfriend when they're late for just five minutes; ban their boyfriend from talking to other girls; worst still, ban their boyfriend from going out with his friends etc; then, is he really important in your life? is he the one you really love? is he happy with your given rules?

i doubt so.


sigh. i just didnt like friends to be asking me to ignore my boyfriend, saying that we're very sticky etc. i know what im doing and don want to hurt him. because i know we have very little time to be together unlike others, thats why im treasuring every moment, not letting go of any chances.

it's never easy when he's serving ns -- lifestyle changes, schedule's packed, controlled. but we still endure through. frankly, we have not been quarreling (maybe once or twice the most) since he's there. haa some people will say no quarrel no good; quarrels can strengthen a relationship; but quarreling only make things difficult and awkward for us.

i've learned to cherish him even more, and... feeling what <3 is.


i wish to spend more time with him, it's never enough.







and friends... say whatever you want, it doesnt matter (: you'll never understand my situation and why im so sticky until you experience it.

real friends are always more understanding, forgiving, empathetic... and i only have one or two. i don need more than that, they're more than enough. ((:



aye how much i miss sandra. so bored at home, if only she's in singapore i'll drag her out! haa.