f r u s t r a t i o n

1. helped my mother submit my father's wrong information regarding the income tax filing. it's my mistake for not consulting my mother before having the submit the form. and now... there's no way that i can view it and amend it. well done. darling was here just now when im doing the filing. the feeling was so unbearable that i wanted to just pull all my hair out and pull my skins off. it's kinda like a half scared half angry feeling. there's nothing i can do now to turn back time. hopefully my mother will remember to call them tomorrow and let them know about this problem so that we can do it all over again. argh. hate doing this kind of complicated pieces of shitt.

2. my brothers' studies and behaviours. especially the youngest one. cheated during geography test? i really don know who should i trust. he denied. but his teacher called and said that she has hard evidence that he cheated and claimed that she had been waiting for my parents to go down whereas my brother told us that parents need not have to go down anymore. who should i believe? is my brother lying or is that teacher just loves picking on him? i really do not know. i just hope he can "wake up" and start thinking what he is doing and not make mistakes like this again. i want him to prove to my father that he can do it as well. don want anybody to look down on him. at least i know my another brother has grown up already, knowing what he is doing now. but still, i hate to see him venting his anger on the youngest one. hai.

3. my family. cant feel any love in this home. unlike other families, they at least make a point to have dinner together. i calculated, maybe it has been yearrs since we have really settle down to have dinner together. actually, i don wish for much. i hope my home will be more peaceful and that there's nothing we need to worry about. also, hope that my brothers will be more sensible. please grow up.


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it's already 14th april already. that means 10 more days to school reopen. fucked. am not prepared to go to school still. no new bag, no new clothes. haaa. i don like school. please extend my holiday.

hai spent two days with darling. went cck and waited for him to book out on wednesday and spend some time slacking in the library. that is the worst library in singapore i guess -- their chairs are like table and there's only one table. went orchard, simlim and bugis yesterday and bought a lot of things. thank him for everything ((: and sorry to be treating you so badly like venting my anger. tomorrow you'll be doing duty alone, i really hope time will pass very fast for you. and everything will be smooth and you'll be fine. take care of yourself. *pat pat*


haii.