timetable may not be as packed as the last one but i doubt it will be easy though. having weirdy kind of subject like the business enterprise/entrepreneur or something which require us to do some reflection on some boring video and then there will also be issue presentation assess individually. had french tutorial just now, i think im gonna fail this subject. not motivated to learn, feel so bored after some time and maybe jap is still easier.

not going to school tomorrow! so happy. was wondering whether i should rebond my hair or not because i hate the texture now. makes it look so thick. and i don know why there're people who are so critical and cant stop criticizing their friend's friends whenever they met. it's like not as if she has grown any prettier or she's the most beautiful person in the world. there's no right for her to fook people.

you make me hate you even more ((:

no nights off for darling this week, sadded. but luckily it's friday tomorrow! love it!




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have you ever wonder "why men lie and women cry"? for now, it will remain like that. maybe in the near future it will change to "why men cry and women lie".

women will dominate the world! haa. and start having extra-marital affairs while men struggle at home to complete the housework.

just crapping.


clashed lectures again so that i wont have to go to school this friday. only the french lecture is interesting with handsome&cute-yet-a-little-gay lecturer entertaining us, my tutor too! seems like a tough language to cope. next two lectures were taught by uncool lecturers that made me switched myself off. damn lor-soh!

siam far far after lectures. home sweet home.

think nowadays, that boy is quite busy in camp. having lesser time to accompany me in the night too. really miss him a lot. hope they don give him so much things to do, please let him rest a litle.

monday is another holiday!

***

im just too bored to be true ((:

first day of school today. went there for an hour only and then headed home.

if only everyday's like that. thankfully, i don have to be there tomorrow. changed the lecture slot the wednesday's one. save on transport, effort and precious time. am quite happy.

finally trimmed my eyebrow.


hmm...
ord soon please ((:

tell me it's not true that im back to school tomorrow. argh.

didnt really enjoyed my holidays, this really proves how time flies. two months had passed just like that and i really don know what ive accomplished. really hate the fact that im still studying with projects and exams coming along and many some irritating people around. maybe.

thankfully that i still have suet with me this sem, we shall suffer together and start picking on irritating people again. really am still unprepared to go to school, don even know if i still have pens with me not. please give me back my holidays.

accompanied darr to nuh on friday for his appointment. was so happy that he was not required to book in again after the appointment. went back home after that. long weekend for us. woo.

sigh, was suppose to go zoo with his friends on saturday. but ended up not going due to some reasons. prepared a lot of sandwiches the night before for the zoo outing, aye sounds so childish. in the end having to ask my brother help finish it up and also for darr's ns friends. actually, was anticipating for that day to arrive but quite sad that it was canceled eventually. but it's okay anyway, we can always go next time ((: zoo will be opened just for us!

watched "take the lead" on saturday though. quite a nice movie, will rate it 8 upon 10. the music, the moral of story, the dance are excellent! xD love it!

***


i don want to go to school >.<

THEY really make me hate them to the core. hate the way they organise the schedule. IF i didnt check my schedule today, now, i wouldnt have realised that i am supposed to work tomorrow. i was told that they let me work on thursday from 9-5 (supposed to be on standby) but i wasnt told that i am supposed to be working tomorrow. grr.

just fuck the way they do things. hell to you.

went polyclinic and kanna fook by the doctor. bitch! it's either my acting skill wasnt good enough or ive got many records there or she is an experienced bitch. she didnt want to give me any mc or fook. kinda quarreled with her a little, but i really had a little sore throat ma. waited so long for her. don know what the hell she was doing with every patient. waited for more than two hours for everything. the doctor is a lousy one, who has bad attitude and bitchy! was really guilty to have let sandra suffered with me in the clinic, waited so freaking long. sigh. waste our time and my money! shall change another clinic in future.

but... im a happy girl later!

had kfc for lunch again. finger licking good. and then off to bugis and after walking for rounds, i finally bought the bag i eyed for so long! love it! hopefully i will be good and use it frequently to make the money worth it. and then, i bought a pair of shoes and im ninety nine percent satisfied!

a happy girl for the time being.

as expected, we headed to bishan, our "favorite" spot. haa. walk till my legs start to ache like mad. wished that im on a wheelchair then. lol.

we're like crazy women roaming around singapore.

home sweet home.


mann. they have yet to reply my sms, am so confused if i should go to work tomorrow or not. school going to reopen already and i don know if i should continue working or not, all depend on how my timetable will look like. im not like against the company because of grudges or anything. im not the only who hates the way they do things and the management themselves. they're simply making everyone hates them, im not a person who knows how to `por` them or anything to make them give me super good treatment. im there for the money.



please tell me that my holiday has been extended.

have been browsing through `joyce's shop @ yahoo auction`. so tempted to get everything! but was sadded that the black bag i wanted actually went out of stock. sadded. told everyone how sad was i the moment i realised that it no longer appear in the webby. then i saw this yellow version of the bag last few days, quite tempted to get it. price wise is quite reasonable as compared to market price in singapore. convert to singapore dollar, it's less than $20. but of course, have to consider all other taxes and shipment fee? whereas in singapore, they sold it for like $40 onwards. or maybe i just don know where to find cheaper ones. haa.


this is the one i wanted!



but, left with this. like it too!


please pray that karen's friend has not send their orders. please include me.


hees.

just came back from work not long ago. was feeling very sleepy cos have not been working for some time already. not use to waking up early. dragged myself to work though and thankfully they did not extend me. blessed. so many calls today but luckily everything went on smoothly.

yesterday, dar's brother brought his girlfriend back home for dinner! argh missed the chance man. haa. so coincidence to be carrying the same name with her though may not be similar in spelling. zhu ta men xing fu. hope to see her soon. ((:



i love nutella spread on bread!

i hate fooking monday!



and... i predicted that i will be `sick` tomorrow! not going work i supposed as they requested us to be in formal attire or they will ask us to leave. i rather not go than having them to ask me leave tomorrow. waste my transport fee only. i will take an mc tomorrow, at least im willing to spend some money to get an mc than having to go to work.


i miss darling.

f r u s t r a t i o n

1. helped my mother submit my father's wrong information regarding the income tax filing. it's my mistake for not consulting my mother before having the submit the form. and now... there's no way that i can view it and amend it. well done. darling was here just now when im doing the filing. the feeling was so unbearable that i wanted to just pull all my hair out and pull my skins off. it's kinda like a half scared half angry feeling. there's nothing i can do now to turn back time. hopefully my mother will remember to call them tomorrow and let them know about this problem so that we can do it all over again. argh. hate doing this kind of complicated pieces of shitt.

2. my brothers' studies and behaviours. especially the youngest one. cheated during geography test? i really don know who should i trust. he denied. but his teacher called and said that she has hard evidence that he cheated and claimed that she had been waiting for my parents to go down whereas my brother told us that parents need not have to go down anymore. who should i believe? is my brother lying or is that teacher just loves picking on him? i really do not know. i just hope he can "wake up" and start thinking what he is doing and not make mistakes like this again. i want him to prove to my father that he can do it as well. don want anybody to look down on him. at least i know my another brother has grown up already, knowing what he is doing now. but still, i hate to see him venting his anger on the youngest one. hai.

3. my family. cant feel any love in this home. unlike other families, they at least make a point to have dinner together. i calculated, maybe it has been yearrs since we have really settle down to have dinner together. actually, i don wish for much. i hope my home will be more peaceful and that there's nothing we need to worry about. also, hope that my brothers will be more sensible. please grow up.


*** ***


it's already 14th april already. that means 10 more days to school reopen. fucked. am not prepared to go to school still. no new bag, no new clothes. haaa. i don like school. please extend my holiday.

hai spent two days with darling. went cck and waited for him to book out on wednesday and spend some time slacking in the library. that is the worst library in singapore i guess -- their chairs are like table and there's only one table. went orchard, simlim and bugis yesterday and bought a lot of things. thank him for everything ((: and sorry to be treating you so badly like venting my anger. tomorrow you'll be doing duty alone, i really hope time will pass very fast for you. and everything will be smooth and you'll be fine. take care of yourself. *pat pat*


haii.

received another bad news from my brother's teacher this morning. saying things like he cheated during his geography test and requested my parents to be there early in the morning tomorrow. kinda like breaks my heart after hearing this piece of news. i understand how my parents feel and how my brother feels.

really spoil my day. whole day feeling worried. worried what my father will do when my brother reach home. worried whether my brother will be expelled or not.

sigh.



hopefully... everything will be fine tomorrow.




but

but

but

i will be able to go out with darling tomorrow! and friday. but saturday he will be on duty. alone guarding the camp. scary. but at least he need not stand whole day. if only i can go in and accompany him, guarding the camp together with him. how fun would it be.


muahh.

finally met sandra sim today! so happy to be able to see her again. hear lots of complains from them, like how those barbarians squat, how they anyhow spit. how they beg for money. how they urine without having to close the door.

those people are simply dirty and disgusting. brainless bunch of people. never liked them. ugly, desperate, cunning and stupid bitches/sluts/bastards.

puiii.

have been thinking whether to further my studies after getting the diploma. part of me wanted. another part of me dislike exams and projects to the core. in singapore or other country? but have no money.

c o n t r a d i c t i n g


sandra's not back yet. will be back in about two to three days time. hope to see her real soon, excited over what she's getting for me too! not bad ah, away from holiday still will think about me. xD

to think about it, we once hated each other when we were in lower secondary, out of no reason i guess or maybe cos of that china bitch. till now i don know why she hated me. got to know that we live at the same block only in secondary school. otherwise, we don meet each other downstair or what. there was once, she tried stapling all the poker cards and throw it down - she was at storey two only. so i was downstair trying to grab the cards. that was even before we entered secondary school. didn't know that was her. how silly can we be and weird.

she's suppose to be hating me but... we're now friends and neighbours.

p r i c e l e s s


met darling only on saturday as he was home late on friday, having his display week and having to load everything back to his camp blablabla. was suppose to go bugis do some shopping but ended up slacking at hoome, too lazy to go anywhere. only went amk central and ate kfc for lunch and walked around. late in the afternoon, started asking dar's friends whether there's any programme planned? was supposed to sing song but change of plan as mel ng and nerissa dont sing. as usual, watch movie . went ps earlier to meet laolao as he was alone there - poor thing. finally get to eat the grilled chicken set with darling! the queue was terrible. still as nice as ever just that they've increased the price a little.

was quite a nice movie, at least to myself. some of them said it was lame. but at least this movie i don feel bored over it. unlike some romance movie, i can predict the stupid ending and i will feel as if ive been in the cinema for ten over hours. so boring. but i enjoyed this movie! maybe im just weird. it's quite unpredictable and funny. i'll rate it 8 over 10. ((: mr bean is so different from his usual self in the movie. so not mr bean.

oh! and i met amanda before and after the show. she had a haircut again...

went for supper at serangoon prata again. irritated by those people who smokes and those little green insects. itch everywhere and started feeling very irritated by little things. it's just me.

as for today, im under standby for work. they called just now, its my choice whether to pick up their calls or not. i'll treat you good if you treat me good. too bad, thats how you treated me.



cooked spaghetti just now. was not as nice though. haa.


wondering what he is doing now, can only see him on wednesday. sigh.

ive got nothing to do at home.

bored.

was working for the last few days. nothing interesting happened. maybe for now, im more patient with all those idiotic customers, afterall, it'll do me no good to be shouting at them. i work for the money, not that im enjoying it. this is only short-term, never in the long run ((: money money, please give me more.



zhong se qin you? am i?

if you think i cant live without my boyfriend, yes you're right. maybe you should put yourself in my situation. to think im like you guys? boyfriend will always be there for you when you needed him. mind you, we have only about two and a half days out of the seven days to be together, when i needed him, he may not be there for me physically. some times even lesser days to be together due to confinement and stuff. time together is really short and precious.

maybe ive been neglecting you guys. yes. my boyfriend is above all. my priority. i don mind taking off that day if he happens to book out, i don mind skipping school just to be with him, i don mind what my friends said because i know you all don understand and maybe your boyfriend is not so important in your life. perhaps you all will only understand how im feeling and why im doing this when your boyfriend is serving the nation.

i wonder why some girls can give their boyfriends names like bastards, fcukers etc; scold their boyfriend when they're late for just five minutes; ban their boyfriend from talking to other girls; worst still, ban their boyfriend from going out with his friends etc; then, is he really important in your life? is he the one you really love? is he happy with your given rules?

i doubt so.


sigh. i just didnt like friends to be asking me to ignore my boyfriend, saying that we're very sticky etc. i know what im doing and don want to hurt him. because i know we have very little time to be together unlike others, thats why im treasuring every moment, not letting go of any chances.

it's never easy when he's serving ns -- lifestyle changes, schedule's packed, controlled. but we still endure through. frankly, we have not been quarreling (maybe once or twice the most) since he's there. haa some people will say no quarrel no good; quarrels can strengthen a relationship; but quarreling only make things difficult and awkward for us.

i've learned to cherish him even more, and... feeling what <3 is.


i wish to spend more time with him, it's never enough.







and friends... say whatever you want, it doesnt matter (: you'll never understand my situation and why im so sticky until you experience it.

real friends are always more understanding, forgiving, empathetic... and i only have one or two. i don need more than that, they're more than enough. ((:



aye how much i miss sandra. so bored at home, if only she's in singapore i'll drag her out! haa.

received a fucking warning letter on friday, 31st march - the day my contract is supposed to end. but they've extended my contract for balls.

was just so unlucky to pick up that bitch's call. it wasn't my bloody fault to be taking your wrong order and obviously, the recording proves that you're the one at fault. sharon ( _|_ shift leader ) forced me not leak a word about the recording we have in that call centre. and hell to all of you for making my life so difficult. obviously if im the customer, i would insist that the mistake does not lies on my part. i know i had been very patient with the customer in the beginning, was really very patient to have listened to her noise, her complaints. too bad, i had enough. there's a limit in everything. IF YOU WERE THE ONE WHO ANSWERED THE CALL, I BELIEVE YOU'LL DO THE SAME. YOU'VE TO PUT YOURSELF IN MY POSITION. say no more, im just too unlucky to answer your cheebye call. hell to that ms vanessa who played the role as a bitchy customer and hell to you sharon - my beloved shift leader *balls* and thanks to jane and daniel who handed me my first yet the most innocent warning letter. FUCK the company, understand?

if i were to make "mistakes" again and the second warning letter comes my way, i'll resign. i swear. no point working there anymore when i don even enjoy at the first place. those people are just simply selfish and no manners. bunch of barbarians. if you're like those customers who loves making things difficult for the person serving you then, hell to you. stop being so irritating. you'll get no where! customers are not always right. you'll think that we're giving in to you, but hell no. you're being cursed.

sharon said that's very bad customer service. like a joke, like she can do better. herself with such bad and sucky irritating attitude. treats her agents like shiit. like in the past, her fucking attitude turns me off when she's taking order. just press on mute and started shouting and scolding customers. and now, she tells me how bad my service is. i really don know why people looks at one's fault only and not the other way round. when you did something wrong, then you're very wrong, everything you did will be very very wrong. but when you're doing something great, will they ever compliment you? yes, but seldom.

jane and daniel told me that i should have let my beloved shift leader handle that call if i cant handle it myself. well, i have asked sharon to help me. that customer's beyond my control. she doesnt understand and dont put herself in my situation. she's like just venting her temper on me, whatever she can think of, she will just shout out. as if it's all my fault. claims that there're always mistakes whenever she order bla. if thats the case, why does she still wants to order from us? can't she order from others or can't she just move her fucking heavy butt down to get something to fill her hungry stomach? in the end, that sharon just ask me to handle the call myself, saying things like i have to learn. ya ya, like i have not learn enough. fuck you, you're simple tooo helpful. thanks to you.

the outside world is simply too cruel.

puii.

let those be my nightmare.



darling made my day after that incident. seeing him makes me forget about everything. anyway, there's no use remembering those ugly stuff. spend time slacking at home on saturday. was walking around in the ntuc and suddenly wanted darling to cook dinner again. bought ingredients that we needed so that we can have our very own dinner our own style!

jimson can cook! claps. i cant cook, but i can always be your assistant doing all the sai kang. blaa.

you're wonderful. loves you always.



lastly, what's so happy about april fool day?

childish. hm...