been talking about the future with darling recently. issues like what we'll be working as in future and buying a house for the future. to think about it, i myself do not know what i want to work as next time -- an employee or a boss? most probably i'll be working for others, in another words, i'll be an employee. haa. but where will i be? whatever will be will be...

if only we have the money now and we can get married or at least have our own house where we can spend more time together. not forgetting our parents though. but these are way too unrealistic. firstly, we don have the money. secondly, our parents may not agree to it. thirdly, im still studying and he's still serving the nation. moreover, we have to consider all the utility bill and other bills. dar, we can only dream of that ba. as we only have the weekends together, he will be my first priority, just love spending time with him. sigh he was sick again this morning. i don know how to take good care of him that's why. forgot to ask him bring his medicine over. like 6+am in the morning, i went down to get him some panadol and buns for him. please take care of yourself darling, drink more water (;

my brothers, especially the younger one, worries me. i know it hurts him whenever my father starts venting his anger on him. hates that kind of situation too. everyone in my family knows about my father's temper - can be very good this minute and changes another minute. it's like we kind of like living in fear, do not know when he's going to explode. but my that brother is going through his puberty stage i supposed, it's also the most dangerous point of life, whether he'll mix with bad company or whatever depends on how we treat him. sigh i hate the way he shout at me when he's angry. but one thing good about him is that he doesnt bear grudges. today he's angry and tomorrow he will act as if nothing had happened, unlike me. sigh, all i hope is that he can put efforts into his studies and prove to everyone that he can study. hopefully, he doesnt mix with the wrong group of people too. most of all, i hope my father will improve his temper and not erupt any time he wants - it's really scary.

oh! and darling fixed this monitor for me this afternoon! thank you beibei. (: