read something about `feng shui` during work yesterday. quite an interesting article though.

don know whats wrong with my mouse. click only once and so many windows appeared. ya im a computer idiot. haa.

tuesday, went out with sandra thinking that my pay will be in already. supposed to be shopping for tops&bottoms. sadded. anyway i also didnt see anything i wanted. that queen bought so many things. haa. met karen for our supposedly dinner after that, but she ate already. after bandito-ing with sandra we walked around around bishan and headed home after that. if only our holiday can be extended.

that queen is flying to cheena on monday. so fast! going to where she belongs and find a cheena man and start a brand new life over there. after some time, come back to singapore and set up a stall at my house downstair s11 and sell dried duck. happy ever after. the s11 over here will be conquered by all the cheenas. damns.

haa.

please tell me that my holiday has been extended.

read something about `feng shui` during work yesterday. quite an interesting article though.

don know whats wrong with my mouse. click only once and so many windows appeared. ya im a computer idiot. haa.

tuesday, went out with sandra thinking that my pay will be in already. supposed to be shopping for tops&bottoms. sadded. anyway i also didnt see anything i wanted. that queen bought so many things. haa. met karen for our supposedly dinner after that, but she ate already. after bandito-ing with sandra we walked around around bishan and headed home after that. if only our holiday can be extended.

that queen is flying to cheena on monday. so fast! going to where she belongs and find a cheena man and start a brand new life over there. after some time, come back to singapore and set up a stall at my house downstair s11 and sell dried duck. happy ever after. the s11 over here will be conquered by all the cheenas. damns.

haa.

please tell me that my holiday has been extended.

so many things happened last week.

firstly, i was posted to singpost campaign for three days from wednesday to friday. nine to six everyday. jobscope is to call people and do a short survey regarding the phone directories.

having to call people and borrow their "precious" time is such a difficult task. it's so obvious that people tried avoiding you once "survey" is mentioned. they ain't helpful at all yet showing how impatient they are and how busy they were. before mentioning that im here to conduct a survey, they sound so gentle so helpful. these people are so fake. puii. moreover, it's only three questions that they need to answer.

had to wake up like so early in the morning and had to starve myself till 6pm. didn't go for lunch with them (the rest of the people who are doing singpost) as i don really know them and feel weird mixing with them. they're mostly malays, those who know me will understand. also, they're mostly full-timers, even if they do not go for lunch, they wont be paid. unlike me, im just a part-timer, if i did not go for lunch, i will be paid. so i might as well earn that money as well rather than wasting that hour doing nothing. on the other hand, i was starving like mad. is like, most of the people there are so lazy. they know that we have a certain target to meet each day yet they took lots of paidbreak. it's so unfair. that's why i took things lightly too, didn't work that hard. if i make more calls, im just helping them and letting them go easy. no way!

who cares about them.

on friday, i thought i can meet darling at night. but he was kinda drunk. don know what it's a must to be drinking there. a kinda event/culture blabla. anyway, he got himself drunk and vomitted. poor little boy.

woke up very early on saturday and went beach road with him to sew his `singapore` onto his uniform and then off to bugis to return doreen her knifeset. after that, it's my turn to fall sick. started having fever on the way back to his house, feeling so cold and xin ku. went home rest a little and then started getting hungry. so i ate things like durian puff, chips, princles etc. so smart right, thought i was alright already.

met mel foo they all for "yours, mine and ours". didn't had dinner with them, no appetite. darling finally had a chance to touch house of the dead four. haa. before entering the cinema, i felt sick again. damn. shivering all the way but luckily that two wonderful panadols help. if not i may just died in that cinema. as usual, supper after that but no appetite still.

reached home around three in the morning, quite shock to realise that my youngest brother is not home yet. called him and he told me he's walking home from hougang already, no money take cab or whatever home. sigh. hope he is not mixing with the wrong group of people. please.

it's my wonderful mother's birthday today.

happy birthday mummy!

managed to get her a chocolate cake from fourleaf or fourleaves. had difficulty carrying it though, my left arm's weak now. weak me. had craving for subway recently. forced myself to get one just now even though i have to wait so long. the process starts when i entered, they told me that the bread is not ready and asked me to come back like in twenty minutes time. fine, so i went to get the cake first. thanks to them that i have to like walk back to tampines mall and carry that heavy cake from there back to subway. when i reached subway the second time, they told me to pick the chips as the cookies are not ready yet and have to wait for another fifteen minutes if i really wanted it. yes, i waited cos i wanted to cookies badly =/ haa and that guy helping me with my order is weird and has weirdly coloured hair. he doesnt have any eye contact with me and he speaks like bullet train. maybe he's so in love with subway bread - kept looking at it.

afterall, it's worth waiting for everything. otherwise i would be thinking of subway again.

today at work, we were informed to be dressed in formal. haa but heck though i didn't wear denim skirt, i still don look as formal. anyway i don see any "big figure". hm thought that i don have to work for the rest of the week already but they suddenly change my schedule so i have to work like nine to six from wednesday to friday. sian-ness. thought i can wake up laterr tomorrow >.<

ordered canadian pizza, still waiting for them to arrive. the person like just called us and said that we did not tell them what flavor we wanted. chey i ming ming heard my mother told them clearly. some more that person who took the order did not repeat the order, anyway, still have to wait another thirty minutes ah.

it's only tuesday, cant wait for saturday to come! miss you lots darling.

been talking about the future with darling recently. issues like what we'll be working as in future and buying a house for the future. to think about it, i myself do not know what i want to work as next time -- an employee or a boss? most probably i'll be working for others, in another words, i'll be an employee. haa. but where will i be? whatever will be will be...

if only we have the money now and we can get married or at least have our own house where we can spend more time together. not forgetting our parents though. but these are way too unrealistic. firstly, we don have the money. secondly, our parents may not agree to it. thirdly, im still studying and he's still serving the nation. moreover, we have to consider all the utility bill and other bills. dar, we can only dream of that ba. as we only have the weekends together, he will be my first priority, just love spending time with him. sigh he was sick again this morning. i don know how to take good care of him that's why. forgot to ask him bring his medicine over. like 6+am in the morning, i went down to get him some panadol and buns for him. please take care of yourself darling, drink more water (;

my brothers, especially the younger one, worries me. i know it hurts him whenever my father starts venting his anger on him. hates that kind of situation too. everyone in my family knows about my father's temper - can be very good this minute and changes another minute. it's like we kind of like living in fear, do not know when he's going to explode. but my that brother is going through his puberty stage i supposed, it's also the most dangerous point of life, whether he'll mix with bad company or whatever depends on how we treat him. sigh i hate the way he shout at me when he's angry. but one thing good about him is that he doesnt bear grudges. today he's angry and tomorrow he will act as if nothing had happened, unlike me. sigh, all i hope is that he can put efforts into his studies and prove to everyone that he can study. hopefully, he doesnt mix with the wrong group of people too. most of all, i hope my father will improve his temper and not erupt any time he wants - it's really scary.

oh! and darling fixed this monitor for me this afternoon! thank you beibei. (:

darling, i want to go oversea with you (:

be it near or far i also don mind. haha.

i want to go
- malaysia shopping and eat
- thailand bangkok shopping and see ahgua
- taiwan shopping, eat, see jay (fake)
- hongkong disneyland, eat, shopping
- * japan disneyland, eat, shopping
- bintan or those small little island
- singapore chalet, lol

boo just want to be with you.

met sandra yesterday. haa and after much consideration, ive finally bought the oto trimax. hopefully it can remove my big big tummy. luckily the sales assistant serving me is a lady then it wouldnt seem so paiseh. hm... tried using it since yesterday. the vibration is quite strong, it's just so fun! haa. but two days only, no result yet :(

ooh, sandra helped me to dye my hair again! bye bye ugly hair colour! at least i am more pleased with this hair colour. i want it this way, darker. with sandra, my hairstylist, i always dye hair at cheap cheap price. free eye brow trimming too. free curling of hair too. haha. she helps me save a lot! :/

got to work tomorrow again. sian. but think of the money... money come come money come!

on standby mode this week. it's as good as not working anymore. good though, means i can just slack at home!

after work yesterday, went to look for doreen at bugis. bought her her birthday present, hope she likes it. while she was working, i went to bugis village to gia gia kua kua. bought darling a teeshirt and myself a skirt. very long never buy things for him already. hope he likes it though - it's what i like, but maybe his taste's different from mine.

hai only the four of us turn up yesterday - doreen, shushu, jorinn and i. gia gia kua kua till my legs almost break. didn't know what to have for dinner. ended up having cartel. didn't know that theres not service charge. only gst. after dinner we walked back to bugis again to continue shopping! haa.

but when i was walking back alone, i feel so weird, uncomfortable and sad not having to contact him in any way. don know how he's doing over there. hai. couldnt sleep last night so started chatting with my mother and brother while waiting for another brother to be back home. hai my mother's so xinku, hardly gets to go out. this shouldn't be what she is doing, she suffers so much now that i really hope next time she can really enjoy her life. if i started working, earning money, i promise to give her a better life. hai.

mummy and darling, please endure. i love you all.

read an article about child abuse. felt sorry for those toddlers, who died early. reason being abused by their stepfathers dah dah dah. those adults are so heartless. one of them actually stepped on his stepson tummy till he died. another one is worst, his stepson is only 22 months old and he actually fook that toddler ass till he suffocates and die. these people are... bastards!

got my results when i was working last friday. wasn't so prepared to be receiving the results so soon but still, i am happy with it. thought i'd have to take sub papers for some subjects but everything turn out quite all right (: heng ah. can really enjoy the rest of the holiday! hopefully i'll be able to be in the same class with suet, shuping, doreen, lorraine, jorin, gallerie, and...

last week was the best for me and dar. managed to see him everyday. if only he's not in ns but still it's an unavoidable stage for all males. maybe when your bf is in there then you'll understand how we feel and why we are so sticky. went for klunch on saturday, finally sang till we song! after that went simlim to get his cd-r/cd-rw. saw suett at bugis! like so long never see her already, miss my pigging partner! bleh. oh ya, and it was doreen's birthday on saturday, will be celebrating with her tomorrow. happy birthday mei dang*! heh. yesterday's weather was crazy. suddenly rain so heavily that an umbrella wont help much too. had dinner with dar's family, woo the chicken rice is still the best. yummy.

hai he's booking in soon already. hate it. tomorrow i'll be working like from 9-2pm only and standby for the rest of the week. no difference from being jobless. haa but good la. don like to work there since sandra's not working. sadded. hate the people there too. puii.

couldnt sleep well last night. had lots of dreams be it good or bad. the most vivid one is that i dreamt that i was outside with dar and his family. then they were talking about someone else. i ask dar whether his family hates me too, he said yes. i starting crying but nobody cares. study dream. and a lot other nightmares but i cannot remember the rest.

i want to buy so many things yet i have no money. hopefully i can earn a lot in future. but im always so lazy to work. boo.


things i want to buy:
- handphone
- laptop
- oto trimax slimming belt, lol
- clothes for darling
- clothes for myself
- doreen's gift
- etc

money come come money come!

attended darling's graduation ceremony yesterday. officially the third sergeant Jimson Neo! anyway, it was just a simple ceremony having them to get to the stage and collect the certificate. but can see them in uniform! his brother fetched us there, luckily there is transport or else we have to walk all the way deep in. heh. however, the toilet is so scary. the lights automatically goes off when im not done, it just black out. lousy sensor! darling always mention weihao to me lol, finally saw him yesterday.

yesterday, i seriously wanted to resign that job. can't stand the way they do the things they like in their ways when i have already rejected them. changed my schedule so many times making me so confused that i couldn't sleep well some days. worst is that, the job they gave needs me to be in formal everyday from nine to six in the evening. im earning not much yet they want me to spend soo much buying formal. kill me. afterall, i don like working with the people over there. felt so outcasted and nobody mentioned my job scope to me before posting me there. puii. lousy management! they have to treat the employees well as they are the one operating the system and getting in business. i really wish they would end my contract soon, im lazy to work too. pui.

THEY woke me up again! could have slept longer.

SOMEONE got the whole roster and started sending smses to be asking me to report to work at 8am bla. so i replied saying that that's not true as i've checked the roster last night already.

YESTERDAY, someone woke me up at 9am saying that i am suppose to report at 9am and have posted to o2. like wth, i wasn't informed about a fcuk at all. they do things they think is right before having to adknowledge the part-timers, or is it like that every where? so yes, i reached around 10+. my mother bought mcdonald's breakfast -first time- yet i was unable to enjoy it. who knows, i met someone there, someone i have super bad impression on. anyway, i wasn't informed about a single thing - didn't know that we have to wear formal, didn't know what's my job scope and so on. BLURed.

darling booked out so early yesterday but i was unable to meet him right away cos' my work end only at six. took a cab down thinking that i'll be able to meet him early. who knows this cabby took sooo long to reach and cost me so much. if only i can meet him everyday after my work, i wouldn't feel so stress. he makes my day. loves having dinner with him (:

received pictures from christina already! woohoo.

gathered with sandra after so long. didn't mind waking up so early on thursday morning to have breakfast at crystal jade with her and her evil brother haa. i didn't know it's so worth it, should bring beibei there one fine morning.

walked around at toapayor then to bishan. watched big momma's two, i think it's quite a predictable movie and not very worth it to watch on weekends. knew how it is going to end right from the beginning. quite disappointed though cos i thought it would be very very funny but... maybe i expect just too much (: to others, they think it's a great movie though. and we could have just watched another movie free of charge! they didn't block the door so we came out from that door and could have just walked into another cinema for another movie. but they were honest people, im evil. floated to ps after that to gather some food and grabbed them all to sandra's place for lunch+dinner = lunner? three of us had so many things to eat that i almost puked. afterall, we stil enjoyed our two pieces of black pepper chicken from carrefour, each a kfc bandito meal, nine pieces of sushi. woahs. they played with my hair after that, straightening it while curling it. quite satisfied with my -curled- hair though i may look more mature but at least, more feminine. wahaha.

really love those time with her, feel so care free. took lots of weird pictures and trying to be artistic having to pose weirdly in front of the camera and adjusting to the right angle. maybe i just love taking photographs but it really depends on my mood.

catched final destination three yesterday. this movie freaks me out that i didn't feel like watching. watched maybe first quarter of the show and shut my eyes till the end. having to watch how horrible those people die makes me paranoid, will start thinking of those sheet after that. disgusting. wasted his money, haa. met christina and junliang in the afternoon. shopped around and crapped around. had subway for dinner, it's a cheaper alternative and healthier too. took lots of photos too, chris's camera is great. love that big screen. finally meet her after so long, hopefully they are able to join us more often next time. met the rest of the gang after that. i was feeling so sleepy yesterday night that i keep hoping that they will go home soon, lol not that i don enjoy being with dar's friends, it's just that im tired.

oh darling, im really sorry to have been so impatient these few days. it's either im pmsing or im... don know (:

hai. don be so blur le.

still loving you darling (;