Two weeks without computer. Deleted wrong software, so it died. Revive again with darling's help. I thought my computer cannot make it already but still he managed to revive it. Cool. Thanks a lot (:

The first few days when he returned back to Tekong, I was depressed. So saddening. Cried whenever I think of him. So used to having him around already. Ord ord... still so far away from now. Sigh, how important he is to me. ilu.

Doing things that I won't do usually. I shop alone. I love staying at home. Stopped going out with friends because I have no money, pay's not here yet. I just love being alone now. Just want to rot in one corner of my house and think of him. Won't watch television programme usually but now I like watching. Always always looking forward to weekends.

Hope no more guard duty for him on weekends. Think nobody will ever understand how I am feeling until you experience it. Feel so far far away from my good friends yet doing nothing to fill the gap. Just love to be alone (:

Wanted him to do well, but he seems to be giving up. It's his decision afterall, maybe that's really not the kind of life he wanted. Of course, I hated this kind of life. Saturday and Sunday is never enough. How much I envy others... but, I'll wait. Never will I leave him. He's the best boyfriend in the world, at least to myself.

People doubt our relationship. Because we're still young, because you're now in army, because etc etc... But I believe we'll definitely prove them all wrong. We'll remain as strong.